Existence Is Pain

 
 
I been high I been low
Tell me then when you this way
life goes slow
Got a family smothering the life
that you fly risk the streets  
or find yourself a wife
Find love gifted a daughter  
 
run rabbit run fast as you can  
Take the treasure this silence is torture  
rip my heart out like it's not even painful  
deny access to my own flesh and blood
Well I'll be fucked what is love
 
Vulnerable lost slipping darkness closing  
Rough sleeper offered a bed
slapped around battered bruised  
mind games with the head
Self discovery in strange places
not an option suicide  
Trust is fucked  
confidence shot evil don't hide
demon come to collect my soul  
Survived this violation  
survived an audience with the devil  
Empty now just a black hole
 
dead inside former shell outside discombobulated
whisked through dimensional rifts
Endless falling through cosmic abyss  
So why the fuck is it I even exist?