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Out grow your Past

I was told early on, I had no worth
I was led to believe I was to blame
My Infant footprints upon the earth
We're heavy and never the same
The one shining light I had
Darkened my world all too often
I know, he too, lost a dad
But I too, was already broken
He took his doubts and his fears,
And aimed his rage at me
Never did he change the gears
His hate, is all I could see
I saw him in pain but never him crying
I needed him and would never let go
I spent all my younger years trying
Only to face blow after blow
I was taught early on, to blame myself
Though I know now, no one alive, is
Still I struggle with my mental health
And self analyse like it is a quiz

My brother and I are now adults
With children that have now grown
I still have my demons and faults
Whilst he still opposes and moans
Mum and I never stop trying
Yet he chooses alcohol every time
Talks shit, I'm no longer buying
As he relives every past crime
He apologises and cries from his den
And I've risked my very own liberty
Like the wolf and his Attention seakin
I gave up bitting so easily
He always says he needs me
Yet risks, or pushes away my hand
I'm still working on my identity
Of those infant footprints in the sand
Suicide effects the whole family
My brother Insists its his alone
Darkness ain't how its meant to be
The past needs to be outgrown

WHW









Written by WhiteHeartWayne
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