My pain

My heart is heavy,this yoke i can no longer carry,my pain has consumed my being,all i know is pain and sadness,no longer do i want to go on,my future looks black with no hope in sight just pain and misery.I can't fix what life has given me,i can't fix what God has given me,i am nothing but a failer,no good to myself nor society.I want sweet death for at least this way i know what to expect.God dosn't seem to hear my prayers,if so ,from a far off distance with no intention of answering.So tired of this pain i carry in my heart,for i wish to embrace death.I look to the sky for answers or a sign and never do i hear or see.The distant waters seem but yet oh so peaceful,no worries,no pain,no life.My lifes levee has broken now all pain snd sorrow has come rushing to my broken heart.Why can't i just die?I don't want life anymore,it hurts to much for a weak soul as i.I can't make myself smile nor anyone around me,I am but a wilted tree with dead branches and not a single leaf left upon it,just a sad wilted tree with no hope in sight.Why can't i just die?Lifes path has taken me to a surreal place that no one should have to walk,but i've chosen this path now there is no turning back nor is there any way of fixing the bridges i've destroyed,there is no more laughter in my heart nor joy,both good and bad times have come and gone leaving behind the pain i've caused for myself.To sit upon a mountain looking down just won't do anymore.No more peace inside do i feel,only hurt.Life would be useless to carry on with no joy inside,so tired of this sea of madness that consumes my innerbeing.I want what others fear,!!DEATH!!Please just let me die.