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Young Fondness

Young fondness mine,  
 
I haven't written for you, of you, with you in mind,
in sometime,
too much self imposed mutedness on the whole affair
 
yet there was something weighted there.
 
In the belly of it you were my first love.
I saw all I couldn't have, and why -
I saw the lightness, as cast shadows, of who I am.
 
I was married last month, to a life, and a man, and a family I chose.
 
It's a funny thing -
finality,
knowing you and I will never be
despite being dead long ago.
 
Yet I'll still hold you somewhere quiet  
in our old  
fresh skin and bone,
 
in the songs of my youth,
in the bittersweetness of it,
in the idea we bulls could fix that china shop.
 
And I recall all the overwhelming love that girl had to give -
 
off the grid,
as axes flew,
as airway stopped,
as something wicked stirred
because you were there, because she knew no other way to show love.  
 
In the prayer room of a crumbling temple,
 
we never stood a chance.
 
I don't call to you now for more than my own clarity -
 
yet I thought you should know  
 
I still walk with you sometimes, in the thick of a joyous life.
 
I was married last month.
 
You are never forgotten, but you are no more.
ImperfectedStone
Written by ImperfectedStone (The Gardener)
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Author's Note
I think being a teenager is one of the most passionate, erratic, mistake riddled part of anyone's life. There was someone in mine who tramples any other in the sadness of it all and yet now, looking...
I think being a teenager is one of the most passionate, erratic, mistake riddled part of anyone's life. There was someone in mine who tramples any other in the sadness of it all and yet now, looking back, I can be grateful and carry it forward with all of those lessons. Love and light.
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