Back At Ya

Howdy hey
I've come back to say
That I've missed all y'all
And I'm finally ok
I'm living again
I'm doing amazing
And feeling great
I've bought myself
A little place
Hanging out with the kids
Seeing smiles every day
And I've even found
My long lost love
The proverbial one
That got away
It feels like I'm standing
Inside a dream
Because I can't believe
All the good
That's happening for me
So I wait for the floor
To fall away
As the fear tries
To creep in again
To reclaim my days
But I'm fighting back
Ain't nobody got time
For panic attacks
Or any more of all that
Crazy shit
These days I'm remade
Working hard
And trying to make it
On my own
standing proud
Doing the things
that I want to do
Because I'm finally
"allowed "
Never have to have
Permission again
So now I'm a bad ass bitch
Or maybe
I may be
A sweet little darlin'
Either way
It doesn't matter
I'm free
Thank God, I made it!

And thank you too
Those of you that
you know who
Have encouraged
And loved me
Stood beside and
Sometimes shoved me
To get to this point
And find my way
Your genuine kindness
Helped to open the cage
When you believed
And fueled my dreams
Could you have known how much it would mean
That you saved me
I say that literally
Gratefully and
With all my love
In hopes that one day
You'll receive double
And even more
With blessings from above