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The Red Door
When you look in the basement
The deepest pits in your mind
There’s always that one door
Where, if lucky, you never find
It’s a deep red, old and grungy door
With claw marks down one side
Weeds are growing up the door frame
The atmosphere is electrified
I haven’t been down in ages
That’s the darkest hole in my mind
A room of all of my trauma and hurt
Where the old me and new collide
It felt like I was in there for months
Something I wasn’t ready to face—
It was inevitable and it was happening
But truly it helped get me to this place
Just mere months ago, having seen it all
I stopped entering through that red door
I just didn’t need to torture my self so
I stopped when I couldn’t take it anymore
But the inside’s been warped over time
The foundation bricks all sag real low
But that big red light perched on the wall —
It flickers with an almost ominous glow
The more that I screamed and cried
No matter which way I fought back
My claw marks are etched in the stone
Fingers all bloodied from my last attack
One day, I woke up. Ah, I could see again
I looked outside and inhaled greedily
Why do I keep coming to this wretched place
Even though it always cost be so steeply?
The place down in the basement
It’s always been my little sanctuary
I would hole up in this place in my mind
And beat down every last adversary
But just last week, I took a chance
I finally stepped away from my torture zone
And I walked past that red door again
Without even glance and kept moving on
They say time heals all wounds
But that time, I really valued myself
Instead of running to the red door
I move right by the ghost of my hell
It’s a dark room lost forever in memory
But now I’m deep in my center I’ve found
The home I call my soul, happiness and being
It feels much better now I’m not underground
My dark spirits are thriving down there
All shut up behind the heavy red doors
They’ve really made a home for the place
Despite all the blood and carnage on the floor
And when I stopped my visits into the beyond
I cut myself from all ties to that magnetic pull
Now I know if dared to open the big red door
Its gates into hell, but I won’t be fooled
For my demons have no claim on me
And I won’t go opening the ominous door
No matter how much I think I deserve it
I’ve seen the terror, I don’t need that anymore
I’ve faced the sunlight all in naked truth
I made amends with the horror and darkness
I no longer fear the door or what’s inside
This piece of me hasn’t made me heartless
Don’t hesitate if you find a big red door
We all have something we need to overcome
You’ll grow that much stronger if you only dare
Survival of the fittest, the weak will succumb
The deepest pits in your mind
There’s always that one door
Where, if lucky, you never find
It’s a deep red, old and grungy door
With claw marks down one side
Weeds are growing up the door frame
The atmosphere is electrified
I haven’t been down in ages
That’s the darkest hole in my mind
A room of all of my trauma and hurt
Where the old me and new collide
It felt like I was in there for months
Something I wasn’t ready to face—
It was inevitable and it was happening
But truly it helped get me to this place
Just mere months ago, having seen it all
I stopped entering through that red door
I just didn’t need to torture my self so
I stopped when I couldn’t take it anymore
But the inside’s been warped over time
The foundation bricks all sag real low
But that big red light perched on the wall —
It flickers with an almost ominous glow
The more that I screamed and cried
No matter which way I fought back
My claw marks are etched in the stone
Fingers all bloodied from my last attack
One day, I woke up. Ah, I could see again
I looked outside and inhaled greedily
Why do I keep coming to this wretched place
Even though it always cost be so steeply?
The place down in the basement
It’s always been my little sanctuary
I would hole up in this place in my mind
And beat down every last adversary
But just last week, I took a chance
I finally stepped away from my torture zone
And I walked past that red door again
Without even glance and kept moving on
They say time heals all wounds
But that time, I really valued myself
Instead of running to the red door
I move right by the ghost of my hell
It’s a dark room lost forever in memory
But now I’m deep in my center I’ve found
The home I call my soul, happiness and being
It feels much better now I’m not underground
My dark spirits are thriving down there
All shut up behind the heavy red doors
They’ve really made a home for the place
Despite all the blood and carnage on the floor
And when I stopped my visits into the beyond
I cut myself from all ties to that magnetic pull
Now I know if dared to open the big red door
Its gates into hell, but I won’t be fooled
For my demons have no claim on me
And I won’t go opening the ominous door
No matter how much I think I deserve it
I’ve seen the terror, I don’t need that anymore
I’ve faced the sunlight all in naked truth
I made amends with the horror and darkness
I no longer fear the door or what’s inside
This piece of me hasn’t made me heartless
Don’t hesitate if you find a big red door
We all have something we need to overcome
You’ll grow that much stronger if you only dare
Survival of the fittest, the weak will succumb
Published 4th Jul 2019
Author's Note
The room where all my demons hide.
May add more later, can’t tell if I’m done yet.
May add more later, can’t tell if I’m done yet.
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4th Jul 2019 1:41pm
It's a great feeling to be unchained. I think I'll paint mine black so I won't see it anymore.
4th Jul 2019 2:29pm
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4th Jul 2019 3:49pm
It's important to know our limits. To know when to come up for air. It can get dark down there. But every rift sealed banishes another demon. Here's to the fight for our healing!
4th Jul 2019 3:53pm
Yes! Thank you so much, Willow, you’re a dear. Thanks for the read and the comment.
4th Jul 2019 8:37pm
I relate to this one very much as ive been to that door many many times and it opened all the time
Yes! I’m healing and learning to walk right by it and not let it tug me in as it used to. Thank you, dear, for the read and comment!
5th Jul 2019 00:59am
The 3rd stanza is a knockout, especially the line: "Where the old me and new collide." I can imagine that being torture!
5th Jul 2019 7:21pm
Thank you, sweet Snaggy! Yes, that was the concept I was aiming for :) where our demons lie low. Thanks for the read and comment❤️
You are a great writer.
Your verses nad your words seem to X-ray your inspiration...
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Your verses nad your words seem to X-ray your inspiration...
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7th Jul 2019 00:53am
Wow, that’s a touching comment. I appreciate it deeply. Thank you, Marks, for the read and kind comment.
7th Jul 2019 00:54am
