My Sunset

Sparkles of sunlight through the gauzy curtain
The bright evening sun in its dying splendour
Creeps ever so slowly to drown
In the ocean with intense adour
Here on this bed I lay,
watching the pretty nature play
Entertaining me in its little way
As I recline in dolorous decay

My face pale, my eyes deep
Are no more as pretty as before
Nor infernally appealing
They do not beg for a fix
Nor fallen angel's lurid desire
Not yet the exquisite feeling
Of needed love, of penetration
be it needle, or an erection
I need a termination

I am so tired, so exhausted
I wish I could just go,  sleep
the eternal slumber, so deep
that I may never again creep
In an existence so meaningless
to everyone including me
I am nothing, I am less
than the lint in a clown's dress
Or the moisture of a monkey's spit

Oh yes, but I once loved
and was loved in return
I basked in the adulation
of all my men and women friend
I recieved pleasure on every
end, was touched through all
my bodily orifice
I knew, I took, I gave, I wallow
In pleasure pricked and pricked and more

I was John, I was Joan, I was Johan
I was man, I was woman, I was everyone
Pleasure and desire, wants and needs
I took them all, I drank ate inhaled
Until the day I fell, pretty boy
My wings furled could not unfurl
I fell on the ground, broken
shadows of what was around me
Reflections of beauty gone

And thus, I embarked on the journey
that led me to this lonely bed
facing the last sun rays of a blazing orb
Setting in the horizon, the ocean
I was blazing in my beauty once
I made love to prince and prncesses
Was loved by mighty men
and mightier women
But here now I lay

Lovers gone and lovers fade
You who touched me once with your love
You who held me once and professed
togetherness for ever to the end
You shun me now,  the ugly AIDs
sufferer, a pariah, outcast, society's ghost
Thread softly now my lovelies,
for my path to this bed
may well be yours someday