Holding back!

Aren't you tired of this?
Don't you wanna live in bliss?
Ya I tried!
But I can't escape all of this!

I have had to give up friends
just to find out how this ends
but I'll never know
unless i ensure my mind bends

I need to keep my cool
so I don't act like this fool
and lose myself
Cause i'm not just some kinda tool

fighting just for temporary pleasure
when i know it won't do anything to ensure
that this shit doesn't happen
cause if i give in there would have to be a censor

just given to what i say
it's not your fault he wants to play
just swing
and fuck up his day

no i won't stoop to his level
i won't turn back into that devil
fighting just because
when I know he'll tremble

then go crying
and lying
to whomever
just to avoid flying

he doesn't understand
why i am where i stand
broken
but still aiding

why i have this courage
holding back all this carnage
and still help
when i dont want to help that garbage

i listened to his shit
and gave him the benefit
without telling him
he doesn't know the half of it

come on man
this is how it began
you let them walk
with their little clan

when you know you should fight
and destroy their sense of delight
when they didn't do enough
to keep you down with might.