A Brief History of Me and My Father

I think it's a very honest piece which took courage to post. Well done.
May your heart be healed and the anger assuage.

Thank you for recognizing the fact that it did take some courage, Ahavati. And also your comment is just really appreciated!
I think the anger has simmered down, and that is why I was able to post this… Cheers to you!

Delanee.

I think parents are challenged at a new level as their own old issues of identity are brought to the surface when their children move through the puberty phase from child to teenage/young adult. Some parents adjust better than others. The eternal question in parenting is "am I doing the right thing?" It can be a confusing time for everyone, and in the family dynamics too.

Yes, I absolutely agree with you there. I suppose that the way my father handled this transition just differs too much from how my mother did it.
It would have been nice to get a pat on the shoulder every now and then, it would have been enough… Or to have him realize the mistakes he might have made - and just voice that realization. That would have been enough.

But when one can't look inward and only blame everything on someone else, it's bound to scar people around them.

Thank you for the feedback, Josh. ;-)
Delanee.

First of all : thank you very much, I had to dig deep for this indeed. It's nice to get that recognition.

Second of all: You are absolutely right... And for the poetry that comes from it I am grateful, it has been a struggle for most of my life, but writing about it has given me some peace of mind about it. That turned the resentment into indifference… And while in most cases that is the worst emotion - it is less tiring and disappointing.

Delanee.

Hahaha, it is the poet's fuel as a wise man once told me. ;-) So probably not!
But you're right, indifference is fuel in its own way. Especially when a bit of alcohol is involved!

Delanee.

It's interesting the extent to which self love comes from our parents. Those who are deprived of it, but still find that peace are truly exceptional. Cool write. I love the organization of the stanzas.

Thank you very much for reading and commenting, Harry.
Sometimes we have to learn how to love ourselves even without having had a good example - to find that out is truly magical!

Delanee.