CHALLENGES OF LOVING YOU

As we go through rough times I don't need the stress of being accuse of cheating on you for all I ever did was love you unconditionally with love honor and respect but I see that wasn't, enough to prove my real love that I have for only you but you know what they say if you continue to accuse someone then it is you who has been cheating on them as you've been creeping in the darkness but whatever is done in the dark always comes to the light.                                      
                                                                                                                                                                  
For I thought you knew and understood of the love lost and gone and were I have been and gone through my life experiences of a broken heart and soul for that is not me for I still carry my unseen scars of the mental and emotional abuse, I had to endure at the hands of loving someone unconditional who didn't deserve my love at all for I thought you were suppose to be my peace not my misery of hurt with pain leaving tears falling down my face as I try to hide my shame of my deepness that can be seen within my eyes.                                            
                                                                                                                                                            
For how can you not see the love that I have for you in the depth of my heart and spiritual soul for how can you not see the hurt in my eyes with each word you shout out to me cutting me so deep till I bleed, for how can you ever believe that I would do to you what has been done to me out of viciousness hitting me like a slab of granite rock beating down on my heart shattering my inner soul into tiny little pieces of broken stones.          
                                                                                                                                                            
For you cant denie that you don't see or feel the love I have within my heart soul and spirit for not once have I ever gave you a reason to feel insecurities about how much I want to love only you, nor did I come with illusions of lies nor disguise my true inner feelings of my heart of my true potential of loving only you from my mind heart and soul but now you got me going in circles trying to figure out how can we get back to loving one another and being each others peace of mind and heart and soul.