fingered in a bathroom stall while writing love notes to you

  
I'm fucking sitting here  
and I wonder how the hello to get your attention  
finger fuck my sensibilities and teach me how not to give a fuck  

pull out a boogie from your nose  
and wipe it on me if you like me  
I'll frame it...put it on my wall of humiliations  
I like it when you hurt me  
 
with a blade I'll carve little pieces of you out of my mind  
and dissect your thoughts---  
so I understand what it is about you I crave  
call it a Freudian text case  
of mommy issues I want to crawl inside your womb  
 
you piss on my intelligence  
it's beneath your contempt  
you can't sugar coat shit  
if its shit it's shit and it reeks  
 
I'm rank already but you bring me to a whole other level  
spouting raw sewage from my potty mouth  
I don't want you to know so I swallow it back down  
 
lewd, splayed lesbians come to my mind  
while fingering the puss filled masochism that turns me on  
masturbating to your indifference always makes me cum  
 
I can't take it anymore...the sexual frustration  
fuck it I'm going back to being emo  
you won't be able to reach me on the phone  
it's off the hook indefinitely  
 
I'll be rambling to myself incessantly  
about girls who don't give a fuck  
but I wouldn't want you if you did