you are my porn

you are my porn  
like platelets delivering sustenance  
to each and every limp  
your relentless barrage  
keeping me like a Goya subject  
swollen and pale  
left to ponder all of the whys  
dreaming of the sweet nectar of your whispers  
taunting 'mercy's that never come  

what dragons have awoken  
what devils are at play  
that you enjoy the twisting of my ache so dearly now  
may i whimper into the palm of your small soft hands?  
those that caress the Alphas  
but offer i no escape  
that lure me further into your web  
and point to corners and darkness  
hidden from the light of your day  
resonating from silent bellows  
that magically singe eyes that follow  
your delicate sway  
those hips shifting from stiletto walks  
those legs in skirts  
that tease all souls  
with their red glimmering exclamation points  
but leave my ears straining  
to sip their lovely staccato from your wake  
 
how i live among your unmerciful no’s  
stack them like a toddler's blocks  
till they need me on tippy toes  
you have me chained to fate  
with cold steel and flippant will  
fueled by my terror  
all for your veiled amusement