Regressin'

No one really knows just what to do
So take a step back from your own view
No need to carry with you what you held then
’Cause you might never see those mountains again.

Everybody’s tryin’ to find how to be
I don’t know but I’ve picked up a few keys
Like: don’t listen to who speaks with such certainty
To tell you what’s what and what life should be.

’Cause the truth is no one really knows
Even though they know they do.
Circumstances got everyone bound in their throes
And in their view.
But if you flip through how history did unfold
You’ll find every kind of mold.

I was playin’ in the world we’re in
But then I slipped out of my skin
Hit the floor, picked up my mandolin,
And walked along my way, strummin’

Lookin’ for the right way to go about
But such a pursuit does only clout.
So take a step back from all you’ve been told
’Cause anything can happen in our world.

Every day I’m slippin’ out of my skin and hitting the floor
Shake my head at what I played – I aint playin’ no more.
I’m addicted to starting all over again
’Stead of holding the increasingly weathered pieces together ’til God knows when.

Oh, there’s a monster inside of me
I call her my only enemy,
She brews a bitter poison inside my heart
That leaks out through my tries at artfulness
I don’t even know if besides her face
There’s anything else in this empty shell.

She claws at me like a banshee
Begging to be amputated
So the baby she’s smothering can breathe
And lazily bask in feeling elated.

In that fight going on inside
I’m not rooting for either side.
We came upon a transition
And now my conglomerate’s regressin’
To my old days, comin’ back as if I’d gone nowhere
And all these years vanished right into thin air
And left me here again.

No one really knows just how to do it
I don’t even know and I’ve been through it
So many have tried to tell me what it was
But my mind speaks up: honey, you weren’t there so shut up
Your words mean nothing. If you wanna know how to be
This poem will not help – sorry.
But I can break my own rule and claim one certainty:
Don’t make it your goal to follow someone’s mold,
Take a step back from what you’ve been told
’Cause if you look around you’ll see that every way to be is found in our world.


05/28/11