New years resolution to forget or curse me for the hell of it

January,  
    cold shoulder shiver,  
 
December had you hooked,  
    remember?  
 
February this scattered turn,  
    flaming spiral crash and burn.  
 
November nods as much obliged,  
    this love still burned like stings or hives.  
 
March was falling down the stairs,  
    or eaten raw by grizzly bears.  
 
October flickered; candles cut  
the flesh from bone then glued me shut.  
 
April grew of daisy flowers,  
    switch blade, venom ,cursive sours.  
 
September sapphire drowned in vein  
    lush secret words keep me insane.  
 
May rapes me like the morning rain,  
    minds fire raged another plane.  
 
August poppies inject the numb,  
red pentagrams: trails marked with crumbs.  
 
 
June jeopardized; this life's discreet,  
jackals cheating lies secrete.  
 
 
July stabbed me in the back;  
the cloak was mine, deep wounds ran black.