Inmarcesible

I looked at him full of awe whilst my words simmered in a pausal moment upon my lips, and I wondered if his hands were full to the brim with intent, the same everlasting intent I keep from escaping when my mind is on the run in his direction.

The kind that understands just how fragile we each are as we edge ourselves towards the Winter solstice, and I should be tucked away in his embrace instead of wondering why he’s there, and I'm here and I'm always pondering him in the midst of my A to Z journey.

I see him gazing upon me as he watches me entertain myself with thoughts of us; you & me in your bed, up against the wall, in the shower, on the floor or lazing upon one another outdoors as we bask in the beauty of natures blessing, whilst thinking how could I never feel anything for this man.

The very same man who demonstrates integrity as he remains humble upon the premise of his truths, things that he deprived me of knowing save in tiny slivers whilst I tried to study his eyes and hidden desires.

All that want washes over me like a wave dawning upon a new day, and in me emerges all that desire like an undeniable flame that we once lit, and I burn for him beyond the ache that grips me tightly when I'm alone, and lost in my thoughts.

And, he stands there looking at me with those secrets hidden behind his eyes because we both know that the want for one another is still there, it never disappeared, and the thought of you all over me still runs through my veins like wildfire.

I was always destined to unfold in his eyes like the serendipitous moment of finding the notion of apricity on a warm December morning, with him emerging in my thoughts.

Whilst his love crowned me once upon a time, my silence broke us down and I have no desire other than to hold him and his internal fragility whilst planting kisses upon his heart and soul, in the hope that he might embrace what vibrant dreams may come.

I cling to him as if he were capable of nourishing my fractured mind as my heart & soul drifts with the mellifluous of those lyrics, when all I really wanna do is run away to somewhere far away.

Somewhere, nestled in nature as the weight of him keeps me anchored beneath him, which is where I need to be because he's the reason why it never works out with anyone else.