The Sins of The Mother

When they said  
"its a boy"
I was beyond happy
he would never have to feel
like I did, no early development
no creepy fucking men staring
or following, my boy will be safe.
Then comes the day he says he's gay
my whole world fell apart and
fear begain its reign again.
Every time he leaves I'm afraid
I know girls are evil too but men  
are stronger, I know because I fought
them off just to have them win
How do I tell my son all of this?
How do you teach a boy to fear men,
some guys are only gay on the weekend
theres so much stuff he needs to know
and a bunch of stuff I dont want to tell
him.  
 
Some men will beat you until they think
your dead, and fuck you like that.
Others with threaten your face with
a razor blade and you just do what they
say because it's easier then being
punched repeatedly and then you're
supposed to just go on like nothing ever
happened.  
 
I am afraid for my baby.
He's not like me
he's sensitive
he still has feelings
I never want him to feel
like me.