It's so hard to come back down to Earth

It’s so hard to come back down to earth
When for so long you’ve been up with the stars.
You are vapor, you know
But feel your feet hitting concrete now.

There’s a time to be in love
And a time to walk alone,
Come back to the city to work 9 to 5
And learn to hold your own.

For so long you seemed stiff
I admit I was a bit repulsed.
When you wanted me so bad
My heart was turned away.
But I never love the person – just the feeling in between
I’ve learned – my “love” has always been unclean.

And now I’ve been burned
The tables turned and you
Look available and I like how you do all you do.
The light that’s been my torch could now shine on you.
Don’t let get me drunk again just when I need grounding –
But how good everyone looks when you are rebounding.
It’s astounding how fast my heart moves.

For a long, long while it will be quiet.
I reject love in favor of building myself.
’Cause when I take in one I lose what I am,
On that I have no grip.
It’s been a fun, fun, otherworldly trip
Inside my heart and mind.

But now we’re trudging back to work.
I see ahead all the lessons I’ve not learned,
The mountains and the rocks without the mist.

I belong up in the stars, but now I feel
A million miles of time between yesterday’s light
And the next trip to be.
Now it’s memory.

I’ll have all the worldly fun I can
But I’ll never be so touched by another man.
And I’ll do all I’ll do with all but the chamber
In the bottommost depths of my heart –
Let it rest.

Back to earth, back to the world.
Time to build myself cell by cell.
And if I find you out in the desert again,
It’s the spark in your eyes I seek, not the shell.
What’s that without the brightness?

11/17/10