I know you don't understand because it has been a year since my death. You see I knew my time was short so I wrote these letters to the boys and you. I wrote to tell you the truth and things I could not say to your faces. There will be mutiple letters and they all will be different. Tailored to you and problems we faced together. My last Doctor appointment I refused to let you code along. I told you to take care of your son and leave me alone to take care of myself. Then when I came back from my appointment I refused to tell your cousins and you what the doctors said. Trouble, my dear girl...they had only given me a month to live. My Cancer spread from my colon to my lungs and panceras. I did not want to tell you guys when I knew you guys were expecting to hear that I was in remission. One of my biggest regrets was lying to you and not letting you know the truth. I hope you can forgive me? Just know that I only kept it a secert to not hurt your my girl. I always wanted to protect you from harm and pain. I pray you find it in your heart to forgive me.
With all the love in my heart,