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Every Single Day
I watch myself in the mirror
I look calm and complacent
behind my eyes there is a war
I can hear it, i can feel it
I try to ignore it
I put on the eyeliner and do my hair.
One thousand thoughts become
cannon fodder being shot back
at my metaphorical heart.
My reflection smirks back me,
how can one so empty
appear to be so full?
Fumbling for my perfume
to cover the stench of anxiety
I think of all the possibilities
how I could die going to my get coffee.
There is chaos, I have to fake the calm.
I look calm and complacent
behind my eyes there is a war
I can hear it, i can feel it
I try to ignore it
I put on the eyeliner and do my hair.
One thousand thoughts become
cannon fodder being shot back
at my metaphorical heart.
My reflection smirks back me,
how can one so empty
appear to be so full?
Fumbling for my perfume
to cover the stench of anxiety
I think of all the possibilities
how I could die going to my get coffee.
There is chaos, I have to fake the calm.
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Re. Every Single Day
13th May 2019 2:45pm
beautiful Nikki I have deep anxiety too
it is very overwhelming most of the time
I relate deeply to this write...
so powerfully expressed...
love Brenda ❤
it is very overwhelming most of the time
I relate deeply to this write...
so powerfully expressed...
love Brenda ❤
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13th May 2019 2:51pm
If i could afford it I'd be a full blown agoraphobic. To much for me to calculate all the possibilities of everything it gets to
be overwhelming. Anxiety sucks but I fight it as much as I can because if I fall down no one will pick me up I have to do it for me my son and my pets. If I let it take me down they would suffer and I cant allow that. Thank you for your support. I hope one day the anxiety will fade for all of us 😘
be overwhelming. Anxiety sucks but I fight it as much as I can because if I fall down no one will pick me up I have to do it for me my son and my pets. If I let it take me down they would suffer and I cant allow that. Thank you for your support. I hope one day the anxiety will fade for all of us 😘
Re. Every Single Day
13th May 2019 2:52pm
Relate ... When our storms crash against our walls desperate to escape how is it that only we hear and feel the tremendous roars of anguish? ... 'tis the way it is ... Bless and much love ...
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13th May 2019 3:00pm
we are our own worst enemies.
I call my anxiety the Secruity Gaurd
a little dude dressed in blue walking back in forth in my brain. He has a flaslight he never lets go off he just smacks it up against his other hand as he paces my brain lighting up every negative tought.
Peace and love to you FeNyX
I call my anxiety the Secruity Gaurd
a little dude dressed in blue walking back in forth in my brain. He has a flaslight he never lets go off he just smacks it up against his other hand as he paces my brain lighting up every negative tought.
Peace and love to you FeNyX
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13th May 2019 3:10pm
Re. Every Single Day
13th May 2019 6:00pm
"...the stench of anxiety..."
I know that smell.
Can't scrub it off in the shower.
Deodorant won't touch it.
Maybe I should try cologne.
I know that smell.
Can't scrub it off in the shower.
Deodorant won't touch it.
Maybe I should try cologne.
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Don't know if it helps but I wear Thierry Mugler Alien and just keep sniffing my wrist all day lol 😂😂😂
Re: Re. Every Single Day
13th May 2019 8:12pm
Have you read Luca Turin's guide to perfumes? Yours gets a mention ...
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13th May 2019 8:30pm
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13th May 2019 9:40pm
Perfumes are a fascinating subject ... the incompleteness of the science (See Luca Turin's work and challenge to science), the certainties with regard to the chemistry then the mystery of scent - the interaction between senses and its effect on the person.
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13th May 2019 9:56pm
I will say I get a buzz from Alien the scent smells so good and theres so many levels to it. I love Escada Sentiment it also has a lot to it. I love a good smell. My nose is super sensitive I can smell everything. Its a blessing and a curse.
Re: Re. Every Single Day
13th May 2019 10:12pm
Maybe you could be a 'nose' for a perfume company. As to Escada, " ... a classic, subtle, crisp white floral ... " according to Luca Turin. Interesting to read your talent with perfumes ...
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Re: Re. Every Single Day
13th May 2019 10:35pm
I collect everything from photos to wood carved faces and perfume I have like 150 random bottles of perfume. I have modern antique and vintage scents. My latest score was a huge bottle of Scandal by Lanvin still in the box 😊