a little less me

 
I'm out of the loop in the universe
the world spins and me with it
slow down baby please
and give me reprieve  
 
I'm losing my footing
trying to get a grip but I'm slipping
it shows my sickness
I try to hide it but it glows in the darkness
 
you're losing it honey and everyone knows
you're just not yourself anymore
as the sands of time keep pouring out
I race faster and faster to keep up
but I'm getting nowhere
 
I'm losing traction on the Earth
I rally my soul to fight  
bending my words
in hopes of freedom
with a ferocity I battle
still I find I'm losing
 
little bits of me glimmer then fade
a little less me every day
I reach for the stars to steady me
laying hands on one
I seek to weave it into my poetry
it sparkles then fades within my grasp
 
I want to dazzle and amaze
but my words crumble under the weight of me
the magnitude of what I want to utter
can't be contained in a poem
It hurts to be full of the universe
without proper expression
 
so I sit here spinning on the Earth's axis
lonely in my solitude
with thoughts that want to burst free
if only I was a little less me