YOU GOT ME MESSED UP
I swear how could you do to me what you did and not have the sense that you were born with to know that you hurt me more than you think or cared, for what you did was poisonous to the very depth and deepness of my mind heart and soul till the turmoil I feel invades my very dreams at night.
For how could you seduce me into loving you and believing that you really cared and loved me when it is plain to see by your actions and words that you haven't learned, that love really can hurt with so much deep pain till your life feels shattered like a mirror broken into tiny pieces of shape broken glass cutting you deeper than your unseen scars.
For you came into my life and world wearing a mask disguising thyself as someone who knows the very depth of lost love which leaves the heart corrupted and afraid, to trust in loving someone as I loved you but yet as the images of lonely nights and days reemerge from the deepness of my heart. All because I trusted you with my love my body my soul even my deepest thoughts of my hurt and pain I had to endure along the way, just know this you got me messed up emotionally and mentally and spiritually till the physical part of me has died slowly through the process of healing my own pain.