emo

 
I feel bereft and ineffectual today
my sadness peaks
and I'm nothing but a lonely emo
struggling with my thoughts and feelings
 
socially awkward I just don't fit
licking my wounds
I would love to not need anyone
why am I so damned needy?
I will surely need them before they ever do me
 
I burn with an intensity that's just too much
in small doses I'm alright...I understand  
but unlike you, I can't take a break from myself
 
so I sit and stew with overwhelming feelings
for instance, I feel odd and unusual
time away to your normal mind
starts to mean personal rejection to mine
 
terribly lonely I seek fulfillment in people
the problem is I emotionally gorge
when I'm finally given attention
it doesn't take long for others to realize I'm different
 
so they pull away slightly
causing me to feel obsessive
my mind spins with irrational thought
like I must fix this
 
it's always the same explanation
no, I'm not mad at you
why would you think that?
 
as I sit here checking my cell phone
with no missed calls or messages