Self-Love

Never, never – get used to the word;
That’s when you’ll forever have someone by side.
Shatter your notions and face the world;
The inside should match the outside.
Or could it be said the other way,
Either way, something’s got to change.
“Fuck you” to the world outside you can say
And go on your own way.
 
Catch the train, run to catch up,
It’s only going one way.
And it always seems to be way ahead –  
Or are you just out of place?
But you stop to look and see that you’re running,
Always running away from your place,
Driven to be in another, further;
Tell me what’s wrong with where you are.
 
After a time, it gets so tiresome,
Spending my life running to catch up –
To my own joy will such a life come?
So I stop and I stay – and the train moves away.
The train with everyone on it but me,
Comfortably taking their own seat,
And enjoying the ride – as I ran alongside.
 
You come to a choice, eventually:
Do you keep on running, or stop to breathe?
Do you keep on chasing what’s not your dream?
Just for fear of being parted, do you run at full steam?
Or do you give it up, forget the chase,
Let it go, and accept being alone?
Is it worth it to always run after the train?
Or can you finally turn away from all them,
And forget the train and how its tracks lay?
Forget the world and go on your own way.
 
Screw the world; stop chasing after
That which doesn’t care for you,
That for whom you matter not,
That which goes where your heart does not.
You know it won’t lead to what you sought.
And it’s fear that drives you along that way,
An obligation of the strongest sway
To follow wherever go they.
Ask yourself why others’ say
Outweighs your own and why you jump
To reach what dangles o’er your head,
Why it must always be that you come up.
 
Around the issue you can’t dance forever, dear
You have to face it:
Let it go or live to chase it?
Follower or loner, dear?
Don’t be afraid to disappear.
Don’t be decided by your fear.
Don’t bury yourself any deeper.
Life your head, look in the mirror;
Tell me what’s wrong with your own face.


February 28, 2009