acceptance

why is it so fard not to keep fighting
why is all i can think of is hurting myself
my first thought is always why am i so broken
what is so wrong with my head
i try so hard to be what you want
i want so badly to be what you need
but more than anything what i want most
is just for you to like me for who i am
the brkoen flawed mess that is trying
yes the darkness in my mind is stupid
the abusers left their marks on my body and mind
my body healed long ago but my mind has a long way to go
my mind so clear some days i beg for the noises back
because the nioses are more comfort than slience
the silence is my fear beyond all else
becasue in the silence no one can hear me scream
but i am trying to accept the silence
for you