Selfish Intensions

Since the first day nothing was ever real
I was never pulled aside and told "Hey here's the deal"
When you were born I should have given you up
To someone who could offer a half full cup
Someone to guide you in the right direction without any lies free of all deception
Perhaps I should have let someone actually qualified
A little more domesticated definitely dignified
Maybe some things would have been different admitting I was selfish in reality I was more than ignorant
The violence got ugly I had no control
I should have given you to a home more whole

But instead I kept you fot myself
I did everything I could to keep you from anyone else
I told you pieces of one huge lie
Until one day you opened your mouth, why?
I did not care how it would affect you
Again I failed to realize being a mother is something i should never do
I thought I could shove my beliefs down your throat
But that never worked I wish you never wrote
About what you've seen or what I've done
I never confess keeping you has ever been fun