It's been this way for two years, so close yet I catch me chocking on waiting every time you lack goodbyes.
Wandering the darkness without your voice to ease the silence.
Life without you I'd sooner die than live.
Knowing your kiss upon my skin and never feeling it again...
knowing where I belong while also watching it carry away upon the wind.
Often cradle my thoughts of you in my heart..
nestling the tears on my pillow... suffocating the sobs from your ears...
heartbreak heaving from my chest!!!
And its been this way for 2 years...going back and forth...PASSION AND LOVE MAKING , tears staining empty sheets. I wonder if you know you're hurting me.
My soul burning away in your uncertainty. Swaying of your needs baring teeth into familiar wounds...
I needed you... but you weren't there... but when you needed me I was there...like a dumb bitch caring for an empty man.
Many times i allow love bleed and wilt.... every day allowing the emptiness seep through the cracks in our window panes.
AND IT'S BEEN THIS WAY FOR TWO YEARS... GOING BACK AND FORTH, SAME OLD SHIT!!! MEMORIES OF LOVE MAKING, TEAR STAINED SHEETS. AND I KNOW YOU KNOW YOU'RE KILLING ME!
KEEPING ME WAITING FOR THE TAP TAP TAP ON MY WINDOW...SIGNALLING A WANT FOR ME!!!
PART OF ME KNOWS IT WILL NEVER COME, ONLY PAIN...WHEN ONE IS UNDECIDED AND THE OTHER IS MADLY DEEPLY IN LOVE.
I know its not as beautiful as you want it to be, scarred and wounded aged but unconditional in the ways of the heart.
It's been this way for two years and I wonder if it will go on another round, 1 year 4 months how long do we play?
TIRED OF BULLSHIT,
PUT AN END TO THE GAME!
Sadly at the end of the day...
I SEE YOU SMILE AND THE ANGER FADES AWAY.
Keep replaying your words in my mind, part of me believing your lies!
Taking a toll on me being so hopelessly in love with someone and them half ass love you back.
Been that way for two years and I ask myself what the fuck am I still doing here?
THAN I REMEMBER LOVE MAKING, HIM AND ME, FORGETTING FOR A MOMENT TEAR STAINED SHEETS.