arsenic

 
your laughter was a cigarette burn on my ego...
in the bruised sunshine  
I wept little ravens of grief into my cup of sin
 
you entered me with arsenic hate
poisoning my womb  
polluted it would bear no truth
only soap opera lies:
dramatic acts of love were proof to you
I loved you...
 
cast as a jealous harlot
I wrapped my legs around you
fucked you with the soul of my broken addicted heart
one hit off my cunt...
would get you high for a time
then your low self-esteem would get comfortable on my pride
 
woman after woman was paraded:
in the shadowy sacred halls of trust
until I could no longer look in the shattered mirror  
reflecting a disillusioned woman of pain
 
a thousand times the mirror screamed
numb me, numb me, numb me, numb me
until I can feel no more...
 
the pornography of you permanently burned into my psyche
a poppie's lullaby sings me to sleep
I will never be the same...