What to do?

What does one do when taking on much verbal abuse?
Got no money or place to retreat to.
Wishful thinking.
Isn't promising.
Shits fucked up. What else is new?
Every goddamn morning i enter the house from a hard night at work.
Not 5 goddamn minutes later the bitchin starts.
God my fucking head begins to hurt.
Why does the one i love with my last fucking breath inflict this shit storm upon me?
As the migraine starts, hear my desperate plea "God please, kill me. End this fucking agony. Deliver me from this damned hellish life that i hate all so very fucking much."
She says she loves me more than I'll ever know.
I have doubts. For her hurtful comments sadden me so.
What to do?
No family. No friends, to offer me solace.
What to do?
What to do?
What to fucking do?

I don't know. 🥺