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Untitled 3/17/19
I've done a lot of thinking
Some good
Some bad
And some random
I haven't slept much
My sleep schedule is way off
I'm practically nocturnal
I barely eat
Or drink
I can't think long enough to focus on work
Nothing gets done
I'm pretty pathetic right now
And I hate myself for it
Some days I cry over the smallest things
Other days I'm frustrated at everything
But most days, I'm numb
Family, friends, ex-boyfriend, school
Its complicated
And stressful
I wish I could turn off my brain
I want it to stop thinking
It thinks of everything
And everyone
I hate it
I hate me
I've tried everything
Nothing will work
I just can't relax
It's driving me insane
Why can't it just stop
I know I should not worry
I know I should sleep
I know I should eat
I know I should move on
I know thinking too much is not going to help my situation at all
But
....
I just
....
Can't
....
Stop
....
Some good
Some bad
And some random
I haven't slept much
My sleep schedule is way off
I'm practically nocturnal
I barely eat
Or drink
I can't think long enough to focus on work
Nothing gets done
I'm pretty pathetic right now
And I hate myself for it
Some days I cry over the smallest things
Other days I'm frustrated at everything
But most days, I'm numb
Family, friends, ex-boyfriend, school
Its complicated
And stressful
I wish I could turn off my brain
I want it to stop thinking
It thinks of everything
And everyone
I hate it
I hate me
I've tried everything
Nothing will work
I just can't relax
It's driving me insane
Why can't it just stop
I know I should not worry
I know I should sleep
I know I should eat
I know I should move on
I know thinking too much is not going to help my situation at all
But
....
I just
....
Can't
....
Stop
....
Published 17th Mar 2019
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17th Mar 2019 9:13am
Love ... That's about where I was ... Captured ... Especially the increased tension to sudden Stop ... Breathe ... Bless and more love ... .
17th Mar 2019 5:41pm
All to relatable
I so understand your frustration
"I just can't relax
It's driving me insane
Why can't it just stop"
I know right it's like go go go go
It never seem to end lol
Definitely makes me go crazy
Some days are better than others though yoga and meditation seem to help along with poetry music and cannabis
Enjoyed this write
Very much resonated
Stay strong! Shit gets tough but I think we all should stand together and save each other and sharing how we feel helps tremendously
Great write!
I so understand your frustration
"I just can't relax
It's driving me insane
Why can't it just stop"
I know right it's like go go go go
It never seem to end lol
Definitely makes me go crazy
Some days are better than others though yoga and meditation seem to help along with poetry music and cannabis
Enjoyed this write
Very much resonated
Stay strong! Shit gets tough but I think we all should stand together and save each other and sharing how we feel helps tremendously
Great write!
17th Mar 2019 7:34pm
Take all that confusion and focus it into yourself in a positive way. Go or find that one place where there is no one and no distractions and see what outcome will unfold.
19th Mar 2019 00:05am
Well, here's a crumb of comfort for you Marina. You are not alone in how you feel & we all have intrusive thoughts at one time or another in our lives.
