daffodil

  
you gloried in the dark matter of me
rubbed your fingers in my filth
masturbated ideas to fuck me with
 
I drank your lothario flavored lies
like moonshine on tap from God's cock
as gospel truth
 
such a foolish girl
I sang to you of midnights in my naive days
tried to impress you with my harlotry
 
you read me poetry from your stereo
we hit our tempo in Xanax bars
a chorus of the wasted and lonely
played on a constant loop in our heads
 
I read you graffitied scriptures
written on bathroom stalls
in my menstrual blood
 
I was split inside  
you listened to my demons
then got their number
and fucked every one
 
we were Bonnie and Clyde
criminals in depravity
Lucifer's eye...damn right
 
yeah, baby it only hurts sometimes...
 
when you buried your pain deep inside me
and for the last time said goodbye
I died little deaths  

while my broken daffodil smile
stayed plastered to my face