Caterpillar'd

I watched the “roley-poley” bug wind
into a tight armadillo-like ball.,
rolling down the slanted stem, when,
I accidentally bumped it.  Sorry.
I spied this succulent leaf yesterday
from afar and I was not watching or
looking out for anything but my early
morning meal.
 
Too often, I am so focused on my  
surroundings during my journey,  
I Think; I wonder if all this thinking
Prevents me from catching up to her.
 
Slowly now, I peered over the edge to see
the bug land safely to the Garden floor,
uncoiling and scuttling off to it’s own
Destination.
Not nearly sated enough, I returned to the task
of munching.
 
A shadow canopied over me suddenly
and I knew it was her, my love ----
more awakened and already transformed ----
Flew in to greet me and see how I was fairing.
“ Hi my Beautiful Love! “
My usual greeting as I strained my plump self
up to behold my winged Beauty.
She said she waits for me; one day we
will fly together tasting all of what the next
Life has to offer.
I have a nagging fear that my slow wit  
and living holds her back from her own
growing discovering writ and giving ----
though I dare not reveal for a greater fear
of her leaving (me forever).
She must really love me a lot to allow me
to grow at my own sloooooooow pace.
 
In the moment,
I am blind to what she sees in me.
Psychic gifts are surfacing for her and
her energy is amazing!
All I know is that while I plod along  
at my slow methodical pace, she
assures me of a transformation one day,
a day her Brilliance will be matched
and melded to my own.
 
Each day and night
she graces me with her presence and I
find myself powerless and I
ne’er fail to fall deeply into her, anew.
 
I know my destiny:
To heal nature, lovingly.
But not before I die.
A deep coma I’ll endure;
a dream of leaves munched gone by.
Will I laugh? Cry?  (or) Sigh?
A near death experience  
and the lowest vibration on the scale,
I suspect.
The one day of resurrect,
Awakened and ALIVE!
I will finally be  
and be with my love and together
we’ll fly and who knows how long
this transformed forever after will last!
Mindfully, as time comes to a crawl,
we will heal other life …
lives
Until we are guided to the next. . .
 
Enough daydreaming ~
 
“Did You find my favorite flower today, my Love?”
 
“Not yet, Tallen.  No Periwinkles today.  
Maybe they wait
for You  
(teehee)”