Cocked back

I cock back my elbow,
Set aim,
And cringe.
Fuck....
I think I grew up to be just like him.

As I cock back , set aim to swing my fist into the walls of infinity..
I cringe.
I didn't wanna be just like him, but I've become the epitome.
I mean, just look at the fire thats lit in me.
I just hate how that shit sits in the pit of me.
I'm a lunatic fringe, binging on the rage that's caged within me.
Catering to the whim of every demon thats in me.
My condolences to anybody that tries to friend me.
I'm set on a path of destruction that'll eventually end me, send me to the fiery pits of hell in which, I am indigenous.
Caught up in my insidious ways, I brew these thoughts that are so hideous.
As I lay awake and count the days.
Self loathed in the cloth I've been cut from for so long it's begun to fray.