We are alive

Euphoric visions
A plethora of dissolving divisions..
The cosmik dance..
Consciousness collision.
Cascading currents of
 kaleidoscopic kisses
caressing my chaotic cranium..

BAM!!!!!!!!
💥💥
Blasted with bizarrely stupid and delusional thoughts
Goddamnit
This excessive overanalyzing really fucks me up..
Fucking sick of this over thinking shit.
Alot harder to stop than I first thought Jesus christ
Crucified on the cross

Alright fuckit
I'll move past it along with the unbelievable tension in my jaw
So fucking tight and fragile feeling
Breathe in breathe out
Breathe in
Breathe out
Stop this silent shouting
and release the self doubt
Meditate the madness away
Escape back into the euphoric visions..
Divine dimensions
Cosmik collisions..
Distracting divisions
Disturbing any mental clarity
I get a glimpse of.
Too much self reflection can bring forth
identity deceptions and insecure misconceptions as I stay isolated
covered in a clouds of cannabis smoke..
lost in fantasies
running from reality
longing to abandon normality
and the absurd routines this society loops through day after day the same way, they all wish to get away and pray
to find another way to get payed
Don't mind me I'm just broke and bitchy
I feel like a joke
Loser
Reject
Phony
Outcast
Recluse
Poor white trash
These are the thoughts I torment myself with way to often not purposely
They always pop up and I start to feel pathetic, I let them drag me down..
Till I see my father
In severe pain struggling to walk
Then my soul gets flooded with empathetic emotions and suddenly my life doesn't seem so bad though I might be sad I'm glad we have what we have
and don't struggle to survive on a daily basis
We are alive
I am alive
That's what matters..