I invent God in a vain attempt
to survive nights of ungodliness
beyond the far side of the moon
with no compass, I feel the dark
the way I do now
while you sit with him
without smiling and deep in thought
I watch him play the game, the mating ritual
kissing you for show and tell, another conquest
You will fuck him tonight although he will never see how beautiful you truly are
your soft neck, your piercing eyes that know what is really going on
the taste of your skin
I loath myself
I will never have the courage to tell you that he doesn't deserve you
Do you even care about that shit anyway?
I am alone in this crowded room.