Where To Direct It?

This force I can't understand
littering my day
with diversions of fantasy
my engagements with the world
unsatisfactory and mundane

How do I channel this
into something to better the universe?
Or am I just judging myself
riddled in the quicksand of shameful observations
that I should deny that currant that so strongly surges through me?

I get a thrill in my portrayal of my sexy side
tickling other's minds in these fact fictions
and stoking desire in the only way that works anymore

But do I appear with limitations?

I am more than willing to scale these boundaries of the physical plain - the ecstacys.

But the cocktail in the soul
swishing with caution
- a defense mechanism
cloaked in travels of the skin.

The value of entertainment
carries a rich history
and maybe I undervalue
that what simply is.