A silly fantasy that i would one day love to come true

I'm writing this because i will never be able to say it out loud , Because no one will ever ask me and because if i put my words out into the world then maybe it'll happen . For the longest time i have wanted to get married , since the day i went to my first wedding when i was nine i knew it was something that i would one day want and it doesn't have to be anything big , Honestly id be fine with eloping just waking up one morning and decide that i want to get married on Tuesday at three in the afternoon or even by court . Either way its just something i would want , I want to come home to someone . I want someone to hold at night and just to do the simple things with, I want someone one to one day choose me and love me to be a Mrs. is something i that would actually be a goal for me as pathetic as it sounds i want someone to spend the rest of my life with. Another thing is that as much as i want a career in the medical field i would rather be a mom , in fact i want two one boy and one girl . I think about names more often like would i want something whimsical and enchanting like like Ophelia or Dahlia though lately its been something sweet , its been Delilah . There's something so sweet about that name , I just adore it . And for a boy maybe something musical like Floyd or Silas . Honestly I'm sold on the name Silas i also really love Tobias too . There is just so comforting about having a family maybe its because i grew up alone but i long for a family of my own just to one day waking up and having two little babies calling me mom , I can only wish that one day ill have that opportunity and if I'm being one hundred percent honest i am very much jealous of the woman that have the life i so desperately want. I know it sounds stupid to some people that read this but this is going to be something that wont happen to me , So world or universe or whatever if you are listening if you could give me these simple dreams of mine ill forever be grateful .