The Monkey Finally Off My Back

Once Mentally Torn
As I physically mourned
Love’s gateway to my inner temple
In the beginning God it was all so simple
Regrets now hovering my mind
Words you can never take back, so very unkind

No more last chance
My faith is now my partner in dance
A new handsome face is now my bedroom romance
So chilling and cold
Words so vividly bold
Hiding your façade under a veil of black-hearted mold

I go it alone, my feet is my guide
How do you measure love, its margin is so deep and goes so wide
The road I have traveled sinfully condoned
Now finding comfort in the words of Psalms
The Monkey finally flung off my back
Female hormones no more out of whack
Love with all you have to give
Find goodness in yourself with each breath to live

A weight off my shoulder
No more baring love’s heavy boulder
Mentally weighing me down
Making me to feel like I’m undeserving of my crown
When no one else is around
No more cackling, or spirit broken voices to make a sound
The assurance in my step is now back
No more written words meant to attack

I can smile to your face
As I now bow at your dethroned grace
I can adapt to life’s beautiful pace
Sometimes letting go is our greatest fear
Just remember our Heavenly father does have ears

Kneel and Pray
Then say
It’s done
My battle has already been won

In His word, His promise, as I asked on my knees
Once you stand to give, as you shall surely receive
Now comes the faith for the heart and mind to believe