You see something inside of me and it's the love I can't hold in within me anymore.
Bottled it up right to my core, right to the placenta of me.
Round in circles of fate my life spins and I dictate my every move.
Was I right to love you, am I right to love you.
The world signs a petition and I mark my name, back into society.
The one I choose to refrain, it scares me half to death yet I see your face.
I'm frightened, frightened of this place, wondering if its truly a smiling face or one that will turn a world so bright, oh so grey.
Take what's yours, take what's mine, yet don't corrupt my soul align.
I'm true to myself, true to you, yet something deceives me with every look at you.
Kissing that leave me frozen, time and past forming an averlanche.
My mind disconnects, trying to figure out my path.
Maybe we don't be belong, maybe this will last, you know I love him.
You know I'm crumbling, you hold me close remind me who I am.
I tremble at the sight of this forgotten land, my misty frame beckons at this point and I can't walk.
You talk and I crawl towards the door, you walk and I confuse you for more.
The world needs change, mental health taking a course.
I at bay.
I at shore.
I begin to see me no more, questioning my moves, not sure if this is healthy.
Not sure I can do love anymore, partying, the loud life.
I want peaceful, loving, calm vibes.
Not this loud bullshit that creeps me into shut down manic fits.
Leave me in peace. Don't try to rise some who is risen.
I respect you, love you but that part of me is gone, for reasons of my own.
To be a loving mother and grow is all I've come to know.
Like a tide rushed in, I wonder where my boat is.
Gasping for breathe, trying to think.
What if I blink and the world is lost.
What if its already gone.