reality ❤

 
I'm feeling you so deeply I ache
inside my sacred halls, I see you
stirring the pools of fate
I carry you in my heart
 
sweet rainbow colored rain
pours deep within me
taste my soul-flavored pain
I will never be what you need
 
if I pull away it's so you won't look too close
at the broken pieces that make up me  
lonely lady built a world of words to save her
I know you want to...  
but you can't save me from fate
 
stir my waters one way...
I'm your little chica coyly looking at you
inviting you closer in
willing you should sip from my honeysuckled vibe
 
then reality sets in...
I realize I'm not what you would desire in a woman
the girly in me is fun
she playfully comes out to play
but only in a safe place
where the sun still shines on my beauty
 
time has taken from me
I had to pay a toll
for living like there was no tomorrow
I don't recognize my face anymore...  
 
with yesterdays still fresh in my mind
I carelessly flirt like I haven't changed
in my inner sanctum, I'm still her
the seducer over men's hearts
 
then comes the truest sunlight
I cry why should I suffer this fate?
god damn you for cursing me thus
 
stir the waters and turn back time
let me have the love I desire in the here and now
let me be twenty-five for him
with the knowledge of the woman I am today
 
cos truth be told at that age  
I would have been too dumb to see you
so busy chasing thugs
who got comfy on my low self-esteem
 
see me by the light of day
no makeup on my face
plain old me no fancy words can alter
the truest vision...
 
there is no rainbow rain
the blush is long gone from my dawn
your midnight smile captivates the girl hidden in me
 
If only I had the body of the Goddess I am within...
there'd be nothing to keep me from you