Mother

A mother is someone you’re supposed to be able to rely on to relive your stress and heart ache, but mine just seems to pile it on.

Im sorry I thought you were the adult in this scenario?!?
Sick of all your petty bullshit blaring through my brain like a skipping disc in the stereo.

I’m Facing every obstacle and challenge on my own,
a house without love just isn’t a home.
Drowning in this pool of hate and shame,
it’s a waste of time to start pointing fingers we both know you won’t take the blame.



We don’t have a relationship everything we do have is so fucking toxic,
You’ve got me blaming myself thinking that I’ve lost it.

I’ve tried everything just to get you to pay attention,
Oh by the way did I mention the fact I stood by you,
when you had all that shit to get through.
Now that I’m broken, loosing all my hope and banging my fist against the wall,
I’ve started to fall down this fucking depressing swirl, just like the rabbit hole, cluttered with all this random shit that Ive gone through.
I was a fool for expecting you to give me your love for free,
yet you treat yourself like a sliver platter,
it’s like I don’t even matter to you.
You call me a liar but you know Dam well what you’ve done to me.
You know how the saying goes “No one cares unless your rich or dead”
Every day that plays inside my head.
If tomorrow you woke up to a phone call, saying you’ll never hear my voice again,
you won’t see me except inside the coffin that they lay me in.
What would do then?
Turn to god and confess your sins?
Or Would you be filled with grief and regret,
Knowing that the time cannot be reset?