Enjoy living anyway

I can feel your pain here.  I always think that whatever season it is can bring feelings of despair.

Very emotional write.  Nicely done.  Chin up....things will get better....

xo

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Very much appreciate your support
and your beautiful energy🙏
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Appreciate your read🙏
Thanks alot Barona!

Thanks so much for this motivating and kind comment!🙏
I do appreciate it very much!

Very relatable for me! I enjoyed reading this a lot! :)

Thank you!🙏 glad you enjoyed this! I appreciate you taking time to read and comment with such kindness
Very appreciated!🙏

When I was not much older than you are now, I had the same thoughts, and contemplated for years until I ran across the answer.  I don't know if you've ever heard of the late Elizabeth Eliot, she was the wife of Jim Eliot - a late missionary to Ecuador back in the  1950's, who was speared to death while on a mission to evangelize the Huaorani people.  

You would have to know the story of Jim and Elizabeth to fully grasp their relationship.  In essence, they met in college, fell in love, then agreed to part way when Jim graduated and left for Ecuador. They wrote letters for awhile, then agreed to cease contact as a method of seeing whether or not God intended them to be together. After five years, Elizabeth was stationed to the same area Jim was in Ecuador. He was waiting when she arrived,  and they were married immediately.  They had one child named Valerie.

Valerie was only 14 months old when her father was murdered.  Elizabeth, not knowing what to do after Jim was killed, kept asking God what she should do over and over and over.  She was torn between taking Valerie home to family, or continuing to stay in Ecuador and carry on his work, that his death not be in vain.  After all the other missionary's wives left, and many days of agonizing what to do next, Elizabeth, alone in that jungle thousands of miles away from any friends and family, looked down at Valerie playing in the dirt.  She realized at that moment, the next thing to do was to change Valerie's diaper.  

As simple and mundane as that may sound, it was the next thing for her to do.  And then after that it was to prepare dinner, then give Valerie a bath, then put her to bed, and so forth.  There is always something to do next - and when there isn't, then that is still something because you have a choice of what to do in those deliciously free moments. You can create poetry, music, art; you can read, meditate, or nap; or, you can just be.  

Jim said it best -

"Wherever you are - be all there."

Then do the next thing and watch your life develope.

Thank you so much Ahavati for this amazing beautiful comment
which is very inspiring and I Greatly appreciate this Powerful story with an even more powerful message that you've shared with me
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You're very welcome, Hunter.

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