Inconvenient Laborious Dumbfounded Nice Guy Syndrome - That's Ensnared in Friendzone Love?

Whenever it is that you walk through the door of our broken home I sense this silently outspoken feeling from you
That almost cries out that you feel as though you're forced to live with a man that you no longer wish to be with or even around anymore.
This all comes from no longer seeing that same look in your eyes
That says that we were gonna be together forever.
It also stems from whenever we touch and I do not feel the same hunger in your touch as I once did,
That made me feel that I was all you needed to make your day better.
And lastly it comes from each time that I pass you by and there is no smile upon your smile,
Just a blank expression of saddening regret and disapproval.

Whatever happened to us?
Whatever happened to your promise if you never stop loving me?
Whatever happened to your vow of seeing things through to the end?
Whatever happened to never stop what we were building?
Whatever happened to forever and never giving up?
Whatever happened do you never giving in the darker of me?
Whatever happened to the girl that I fell in love with who saw me for me and not the monster I saw myself as?

Every time I see you it's getting harder to decide which is better for me, staying or leaving.
Because in all honesty, I am clueless as to which is the worst of the two,
And each time that I lie next to you and either you're holding me,
I am forced to listen to a heart that is letting go as I slowly watch you slip away from me further and further each day.
Sadly, I'm finding it hard to remember the times it is when I used to make you laugh at my utmost silliest stupid jokes.
And I find myself trying to recall how long it's been since I have felt the warmth of your truest kiss upon my lips.
I am trying to not forget about all the things we've done together,
But it is so difficult to reminisce about the good when all you do is let the bad outweigh all of the good.
I wish there was some remedy and reconcile this unrequited love between you and me.
Yet there isn't. Therefore all I can do is stand idly by and watch helplessly as the burning embers of our love dwindles into smoldering ashes with no way of refanning or rekindling the love that was once us.

Whatever happened to us?
Whatever happened to your promise if you never stop loving me?
Whatever happened to your vow of seeing things through to the end?
Whatever happened to never stop what we were building?
Whatever happened to forever and never giving up?
Whatever happened do you never giving in the darker of me?
Whatever happened to the girl that I fell in love with who saw me for me and not the monster I saw myself as?
 
Yeah, at one point you took the fragmented sticks and stones of your past and made a shelter around and out of me for your heartaches that seem not to have a home,
But now you've uncarefully chosen words which you use like a razor blade and a can of gasoline to haphazardly cutaway at me and set ablaze the one you chose as a safe harbor of refuge.
And all I have to say to that is go ahead and unleash your reckless fury upon me.
And I don't take it personally if I'm not too overly heartbroken about you wanting to give up and leave me.
Because I've been here before in this moment when somebody that I loved decided to destroy the love that was being built for the two of us.
Yet I'll always find myself finding another beautiful emotional wreck to try and salvage
That will either wind up either being my damnation or my own salvation.
But I won't cry myself to my grave simply because you have not given a second thought of trying to resurrect our love.

Whatever happened to us?
Whatever happened to your promise if you never stop loving me?
Whatever happened to your vow of seeing things through to the end?
Whatever happened to never stop what we were building?
Whatever happened to forever and never giving up?
Whatever happened do you never giving in the darker of me?
Whatever happened to the girl that I fell in love with who saw me for me and not the monster I saw myself as?

Whenever you were here, by my side you are and I feel you so close and your breath upon my skin
Yet you're not even really here beside me emotionally that is.
It feels as though the ghost of who you once were is haunting me when you were here by my side.
And when you are here you are a thousand miles away yearning to get away from the one you no longer love but just tolerate.
But I know I have to just let you go and learn to say goodbye to the one who no longer feels like I do anymore.
I am tired of fighting on the battleground of this one-sided love,
Against an enemy that shouldn't be my enemy that actually once was my ally,
But at odds, we are now and we do not see eye-to-eye as we once did.
This is the final time that I will throw on my kevlar and head out into warzone to try and find some redemption for our love.
Yet familiarly I find myself somehow caught in the crossfire of a barrage of exchanging lethal wordy bullets between you and me.
Until I've had enough and I throw up the white flag and do an about-face to walk away from the battlefield of unnecessary senselessness,
Only to have you shoot me in the back and gun me down one last time.

Whatever happened to us?
Whatever happened to your promise if you never stop loving me?
Whatever happened to your vow of seeing things through to the end?
Whatever happened to never stop what we were building?
Whatever happened to forever and never giving up?
Whatever happened do you never giving in the darker of me?
Whatever happened to the girl that I fell in love with who saw me for me and not the monster I saw myself as?

And now in the home that we vowed to each other that we'd build loving memories
Is now nothing more than a home of broken promises and Shattered Dreams and Dreadful memories.
Thusly, is a reason why I have begun to hate that place there is now not so much a home but rather a grim reminder a failed unrequited love.
In this silent eerie home of ours, I constantly hear the nerve-wracking echoes of your voice reminding me of the man you always saw as flawed, inadequate, imperfect and some sort of irreversible blight in your life.
And I've tried searing away the painful memories by setting on fire those painful memories of us.
But as I stand here in these flames of what was once you and me,
I realize that there is no way that I'll ever be able to truly forget you,
Despite all the agonizing afflictions you've done unto me.

There are so many things I want to say to you but I don't know where to start,
Or even know that you'll be listening to the crumbling pieces of my heart as it pours out onto you.
Under the surface of my rugged exterior is the love, hope, and happiness you breathed into me.
Yet now you wish to try and extinguish the flame of life you've given me.
By believing it is easier to say nothing at all and light a match and toss it on the trail of gasoline which you've intentionally left behind while you're abandoning me and walking away from me.
But in reality, the only thing you're doing is proving what I already know, that you don't feel the same for me anymore
And your heart is cold colder than ice and just as lethal, in fact, to actually stated your heart is simply nothing more than dry ice.
I wish you wouldn't blame me for all the things you think is wrong with us but you are and you have and there is no changing that indisputable fact or reality.

So in the absence of you, I will continually ponder the thought;
Whatever happened to us?
Whatever happened to your promise if you never stop loving me?
Whatever happened to your vow of seeing things through to the end?
Whatever happened to never stop what we were building?
Whatever happened to forever and never giving up?
Whatever happened do you never giving in the darker of me?
Whatever happened to the girl that I fell in love with who saw me for me and not the monster I saw myself as?