The Fallout

I've had enough of life,
And I can't change it now
Lost the will to continue on
I want to die but don't know how.

I feel sad one day and lost the next
Broken by failures and blinded by hurt
Everyone knows how hectic it gets
but honestly I no longer want to be on earth

When I'm alone my feelings change in mind
Where suicide makes sense for the first time
Crazy thoughts enter my head and I shut down
I stare at my wall and just listen to my heart pound

My world is the fallout
Destructive and chaotic
no one else knows no doubt
I can't find reason or no logic