Poignant Solace

You know, I don’t think I’ve ever been,
You know, been not alone ----
ever.
I know I’ve, at one time been in
Solace refrain
And perhaps even happy at one time…
It has been so long I can barely remember.

In a crowded room, a family, a school
One can become lonely when
One notices a difference
In the way one is not treated ~
When the family pet gets better love. . .

How many,
how many opportunities have I shunned?
Passed on?
Good-Bye.

It is of no surprise to me that
I am companion-less:
No mate, no wife, no intimate significant other.
When You have already met, Your intimate immortal
then the fucking Reaper steals her away ----
How can i ever FEEL, truly feel again?

Forever, I pine I seek and in searching
I emptied the 357 of every fucking chamber
Into the empty spot in my heart
to fill that awful void
that emptiness that loneliness
and when I awaken from my lifelong
Depression
I see clearly . . .

Death cannot come soon enough.

For in life
I AM ALONE.