The friendship dream

I never had any real friends in my life
Friends were something I never kept for along time
Never had any friend that was close enough to me
I never allowed anyone close to me or within me
Always one of those who’s gone it alone and always alone
Always done things for myself and completely by myself.
Always kept to myself because I never had a true friend in life
Friends never stuck around me because they never liked me
Never liked my views, opinions, beliefs or where I am coming from
As I grew older and older, I had fewer and fewer friends until I had none at all
I always knew I was gona be alone in this world
I knew it from the day I was born to the day I die
I always knew I was never gona have any real friends or even close friends
Even knowing that, makes me think how lonely my outlook in life is gona be
Knowing that my so-called circle of friends is getting smaller and smaller, as I get older in life
No matter how famous, popular, cool or hip I can be in this world
None of it wouldn’t bring me any real or close friends in my life
Even in the world of social media, friends are never real or around.
Having real and close friends that can respect you and understand you is a pipe dream
Because my reality is always gona keep me chained knowing i’m never gona have any friends
It’s why, I can have everything in this world but the one thing I can never have is a friend
That’s something I’m never gona have, as long as I’m still alive on this planet.
Knowing I’m always gona be alone and always gona be doing things alone
Because who in their right mind would want to be my friend
When, i’m not, famous, cool, hip, rich or even popular
It’s why those who have friends are the fortunate and lucky ones
Those like me who don’t have many friends that are real and close
Are the ones who go it alone to the very end.
And never see the day where having a real and close friend in their lives.
It’s why friends are great but you have to be lucky enough to have them
Unfortunately, I ain’t that lucky enough to have real friends in my life.
So I’m just a loner and someone who’s always gona be alone in life.
It’s a reality that I have seen as I’m getting older and older in life.