This Reflection life

This reflection I see
I cannot honestly love
An old ugly decaying shell
The madness seeps through
Can smell the scent of my fears

These glaring flaws
Stand out for judgement
There’s no time to repair
Self worth has hit zero
Poisoning the hope in my soul

What I see is not human
Void of understanding emotions
There’s a dark hole inside
Drawing in light to its doom
The poison is eating what’s left of me

Unsteady on my feet
As I’m constantly battered by insecurity
Want to bleed out the cruelty
Scorch my heart
Till it no longer feels the world