the mind of my heart

He has me right where he wants me
Keeping things his way
I'm just too stubborn to walk away
Everyones asks why I stay
I stay because I miss him so
I stay because I want to
I stay because I've put too much time and effort to let go
Its been like this for over a year
Maybe I should just walk away now
Walk away .. Run away.. But how?
He suspects though asks not
Finding myself totally submissive
Wondering if that is why he's so dismissive

carelessness..
fearless..
helpless..
meaningless..
pointless..
ridiculousness..
u s e l e s s..
wordless..
 
He has me tided in knots I know not how to untie;hanging by a raping rope, wishing to die
The fluctuating flow of a formidable foe
Acknowledgment of the battered bitterness of my sullied soul
How to end this messy madness
At best, I am a lost hope
Not knowing truly if this is worth it all
Devastated damsel, capriciously cloaked