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Sad Fact
The sad fact is I drink too much
And pop my share of pills
I can't seem to stay in touch
While seeking artificial thrills
My history contains abuse
Licentious to an extreme
My thinking has become obtuse
In a world of one long dream
I will strive for sobriety
At least hope for some control
Can't handle notoriety
But still light another bowl
I may never be completely clean
And often take a fall
But this usage has become obscene
And I ignore my dealer's call.
And pop my share of pills
I can't seem to stay in touch
While seeking artificial thrills
My history contains abuse
Licentious to an extreme
My thinking has become obtuse
In a world of one long dream
I will strive for sobriety
At least hope for some control
Can't handle notoriety
But still light another bowl
I may never be completely clean
And often take a fall
But this usage has become obscene
And I ignore my dealer's call.
Published 1st Jan 2019
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If you were a real addict.......
U would never ignore your dealer
Your addiction I perceive is more of a choice......good write!
U would never ignore your dealer
Your addiction I perceive is more of a choice......good write!
1st Jan 2019 8:34pm
I wouldn't call it a full blown addiction, but it's getting there. Dropping the dealer is something I'm not sure I can stick to though. We'll see. Thank you dizzzzzzy!
1st Jan 2019 8:11pm
1st Jan 2019 8:36pm
Thank you Brenda. I'm aware of your struggles through "The Meth Diaries" and others. You're handling it much better than I presently do.
1st Jan 2019 10:12pm
don't be so hard on yourself my dear friend we do the best we can any given day...
love & hugs...
Brenda ❤
love & hugs...
Brenda ❤
Bravo Sir Crow! I'm glad you're addicted to writing as well. It will help name and combat other demons.
1st Jan 2019 8:38pm
The writing is an addiction, one of the best. Sure beats the booze and the rest. Thank you, Gahdess!
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1st Jan 2019 8:42pm
I just hope it wasn't too cute. Putting it in rhyme might have trivialized it, and that wasn't my intent. I can't help but be addicted to rhyme and some semblance of rhythm. Kind of a curse, really. Thanks SweetOblivion!
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1st Jan 2019 8:59pm
I think using rhyme in a poem of this subject-matter creates a tension in which a new way can be found to move forward. I take it as a good sign that having enough 'distance' to write in rhyme shows a healthy response to a difficult situation. All the best for the new year, Josh.
1st Jan 2019 9:13pm
Thank you for the reassuring words, Josh. I'm beginning to get enough distance from the problem to see its magnitude. That may constitute a first step.
1st Jan 2019 9:34pm
Great write. I wish you the best in getting clean or as clean as possible, I know it won't be easy.
1st Jan 2019 10:17pm
Crow, its as if you looked directly into my soul, grabbed it and then smashed it all over your paper! We are never alone, my friend. Never....May this new year bring strength and clarity...as an end to our pain. <3
Anonymous
2nd Jan 2019 00:58am
Indeed a very brave and honest write. I wish you a very happy new year!
Anonymous
2nd Jan 2019 1:18am
My dear friend, we externalise our pain, struggles and emotions to avoid them killing us. You are a poet. An artist with style and vision. Doing your best in exploring and expressing your feelings with attributes, allows your message to be understood by the reader. You can free yourself, with help and with your great courage my friend. It takes time and struggle. But I believe in you. Hugs. Here if you need to talk. J
2nd Jan 2019 2:07am
Pardon my profanity, crow, but you're a fucking amazing poet. To take the serious & personal and make it so lyrical and easy to relate to is a gift. Please stay addicted to writing!! As for the rest of it - I wish you all the grace & strength you require. You can conquer whatever you need to. I, for one, am cheering you on.
2nd Jan 2019 7:48am
Good read. Hope you can kick your habits. Ive struugled with the drink and blow over the years. Years wasted on bad hangovers and the blues yo. Months I lived but dont quite remember. Sober these days now. Any ways hang in there it doesnt happen over night. Good read and good luck. Laters.
