The Walls Reinstall

difficult emotions and feelings - your poem brought them out well

They seemed too hard to process, so writing it out gave me courage to share as I needed to. Thanks for getting it.

beautiful Nightbird your vulnerability is present here
I feel your fear of getting too close...

wonderfully revealing self-truths...

love Brenda ❤

It’s empowering to own my truth, and as hard as it was at first, seemed so easy once I bled it out onto the page. How so many years of deprivation could make someone actually fear getting close to others... sigh. But isn’t that a truth of life? Still learning, and grateful for my patient partner.

Thank you for sharing your love and understanding poetess ❤️

There is of course more detail to the picture painted here, and I appreciate your respect on this. Your interpretation and remarks were very encouraging though Melia, you found just the right things to say. Thank you so much 🙏

You are simply the light, Gem.  Whether happy or in the turmoil of depression, or anything else in between. You are the light seeing, hearing, feeling, thinking, and sensing as the unique expression the miracle of life wishes to be.    
    
Don't ever doubt that.      
  
Marianne Williamson once said,      
   
It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us    
   
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.    
   
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.    
   
It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.    
   
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,    
talented and fabulous?    
   
Actually, who are you not to be?    
   
You are a child of God.    
   
Your playing small does not serve the world.    
   
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other    
   
people won't feel insecure around you.    
   
We were born to make manifest the glory of    
God that is within us.    
   
It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.    
   
And as we let our own light shine,    
we unconsciously give other people    
permission to do the same.    
   
As we are liberated from our own fear,    
Our presence automatically liberates others.    
   
Return to Love, Harper Collins, 1992. —Peter McLaughlin    
   
It's a great book.  I think you would benefit from reading it.      
   
As to your poem, I used to think fear was a liar, then as I grew I realized it was a motivator, it heralded when it was time to grow.  Once I learned this, I began searching for whatever it was I feared, what it was holding me back from that growth.      
   
You're experiencing honesty - do not allow the fear of it being born to restrain its truth.  Have you not dreamed of someone to accept you for who you truly are?  You're denying them the chance. . .you're denying the birth of your dream.    
   
What you gain will be far greater than what you could ever lose.  Trust me on that one. When all secrets are crushed with light, then you're free to love in way you've only ever dreamed.  You are not destined to become a miserable married matron with a trunk of secrets only opened when her husband/partner isn't home.      
   
You're destined for real Love    
   
It's a lovely write of new birth, Gem.  Thank you for sharing it.

Your support will forever be cherished Ahavati, you shine such a beacon of hope.

An oddly familiar ring happened as I read this passage: “It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us. Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.”

I read and re-read this a few times, and then it came to me... years ago when I lived in Oregon, I would listen to motivational montages on YouTube, and this was one of the most powerful segments I’ve ever heard. Thank you so much for expanding on this, it’s so enriching to hear more of this inspiring verse! I will definitely be looking into this book.

Fear is abso-freakin-lutely a mark of needed growth, and as this poem spilled out from me, I knew I had to MAKE myself open up to my partner. I knew this was a trial, a tesament of my commitment; that if I ever wanted to experience that deeper connection, it was time to start changing my behavior.

After she and I talked, I read her your remarks here, and we both teared up. Thank you Tammy, your insight is a gift 💝

That is one of the BEST Christmas presents I could've ever received, Audrey! Thank you! I wish you both well! And I have camera will travel if a wedding is in the future! <3

Now that is a fantastic idea! I’ll let you know if/when plans are made ☺️

Oh, what a beautiful, honest write, blue. I feel this. It sure is scary to be vulnerable, but it's worth it for the connection it creates. You can do it, brave one!

I can’t thank you enough for your support k, you’re truly an inspiration that I feel in my heart 🙏

It is always such a joy to breathe in vulnerability, honesty, that touches the depth of the heart. Being yourself is always enough. I know how depression hurts, spent decades under the weight. I hope the new year brings you bounteous blessings of joy, purpose and peace.

Daniel

I hope someday I’ll find the contentment of self-acceptance. Thank you for your blessings friend, it is appreciated. May you find a lightness in your being as well ✨

Youve captured such a feeling that is too conflicting
....too inflicting to mold into words



wow...


shall be reading more of you

Thank you for sharing the appreciation of such circumstance. It was difficult beyond doubt, and yet in hindsight, we can only grow through such struggle.

The first line of the composition made me think.

Quite a ponder indeed.