Horrified-RB

Horrified        
by          
Presentation          
Delivery          
But          
Mostly          
Profile          
Pictures          
Of me          
Which were          
Burlesque          
Cabaret-ish-          
This one        
Local        
Filmmaker          
Big deal        
(Personally I'll be impressed when a sistah can run up in the hood and reach some low grade level of merit or status reporting about her own people)      
She probably          
Could’ve taken it          
Better if          
Adventure          
Wasn’t so dark-          
Which made expose          
Wonder          
How many times          
Other women          
At large          
Might have also been;          
Mortified          
Some in demand          
Jewish name          
So far as the city          
Was concerned          
At that piddle ole          
Time          
With the mayor          
(Nobody’s ever          
Heard of any          
Of us at this rate;          
Irony)          
That came by way          
Via inbox          
After my crossover          
From mainstream          
Lesbianhood          
To "queer"          
At that point          
But it wasn’t about me          
As much as it was about          
Her hiding behind her career          
To overcompensate          
For the lack of          
Sexual efficacy, applicability          
Or the ability to fuck          
Whatever-          
“Guess who’s going through          
The same shit as we are          
Trying to figure          
This dating game all out?”          
I was telling this other          
Flake (local rock star)  
About it…          
She swallowed on that drink          
 “Hush your mouth”          
Dead serious          
Confessional is a lot of things          
But a liar ain’t one          
(I didn’t tell her the logistics          
None of her business but)          
Trying to restrict me to          
Computer conversations          
When I signed on for          
A lunch date;          
Spreading your eagle          
To the curiosities          
Plaguing your mind          
With me          
As the vessel for it?          
And I ain’t gonna          
Placate          
Who you are          
Either-          
No.    
     
(Don't make me put it on you and tell ya what I really think; giving me a Southern drawl and there's nothing Southern about me-bitch.)